my story

I was born in the sixties to a time of peace, love and flower power. My Jewish parents were traumatised from growing up during the second world war. This was on top of generations of persecution and migrational trauma in my ancestral line. Childhood was a mixture of play, nature and extreme violence and abuse.  

I married early and into a safe relationship and had children.  I worked in the West End Theatre in London as I had been involved in drama since 7 years old. Later I trained as a Montessori nursery Teacher both these careers help with my work with trauma. 

At a life changing moment I had a profound waking vision. This vision guided me into a reality very much like the nautilus. It was many dimensional. Within it were beings of light. I could see my own light form which had holes in it and was a dazzling blue. I was shown and experienced a profound a deep understanding of love.  

The vision lifted me out of my safe marriage and brought me into a new life. One that connected me to the Welsh roots of my mother. One where I could find myself and begin to heal the family trauma. It took me through a deep 10 year training in psychotherapy and to explore my natural ability to work with altered states through journeying by connecting to the flora and fauna in this land. It was also at this time I connected to Celtic Shamanism as a spiritual practice and felt very healed by the Somerset land where I lived. I also did a great deal of research, developing a psychological model to help with emotional eating, weight loss and trauma. Alongside of this I deepened my practice as an artist – carving soapstone, making sculptures and drawing in oils. 

Over a decade after my vision, my mother died and there was more inner work to do. Work to help transmute 6 generations through the clearing of possessions and energetically. I took a sabbatical and during this time discovered Cacao as my first plant medicine.  Cacao lifted me from the trauma and grief of my mothers death and helped me find myself in this new context and release all the patterns from the past. 

In 2020 in response to Brexit, I decided to move part time to The Netherlands. I moved to Rotterdam a city I truly love. This opened up a whole new area of research and experience in my life. As psilocybin is legal in The Netherlands I was able to learn to microdose and have experiences on larger doses of psychedelics that felt truly healing. The effect on my mental health was astonishing! I was developing more psychological resilience and a deeper sense of me brought a growing confidence. People had no idea how I had changed but they all noticed “something so different about you”. I went on to do more personal research and study in this fascinating field and felt a calling to support people in these life changing experiences. I also deepened my art practice and self development further, drawing now digitally and using AI to create visuals connected to plant medicines. I continue to live in both Somerset in the UK and The Netherlands. 

Feel free to contact me for talks, ceremony facilitation and therapeutic support (see home page).